I am spent. It was a very hard day today. I feel like I have lost all control and with the behavior issues I feel like I am above my head. God is the only reason I am still standing because I have nothing left and two more days to go before the blessed weekend. I cannot wait for a three day sabath. I have so much to do before I can have three days off. I need rest so I am plowing through.
A relative/friend sent me a scripture today it fits. " I have to reshape and remold her ...to renew her to what I had planned for her to be. It has not been easy for her or for me." Jeremiah 29:11
I gave Cricket the dog back to his original generous owner. I discovered I don't like pets. I don't like the mess, walking and picking up the piles, or the interuptions when I am trying to work. Plus the final straw, I got a call in the middle of class stating that my dog was running loose in the street all over the neighborhood. I am lucky that I have a teacher and a para that could cover for me so I could get Cricket back into the garage. I do not have the patience nor the energy to love this dog after my days teaching, Giving Cricket back was the highlight of my day. He has a new home with kids already. I know he will be happy.
God is still good all the time even when I am homesick. Boy this journey with God is going to be a fun rollercoaster ride. I better buckle my seatbelt. I have a feeling that I have not reached the highest part of the ride yet.
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You can do it Margie! One day at a time. You're way stronger than a bunch of kids. Heck, you gave birth to two and raised 'em already! Just remember to take good care of yourself.
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